Alright… I was positive for about the 2nd cycle of the  first week into P90x and now the truth on the matter. See, I have this goal in mind that I can’t shake, and even after years of failures this is something that so far has proved a powerful push in the right direction. I just have to tell the truth here, I know I’m going to beat myself up for it, I know others will hate me, and even the workout Gods will have their way with me for a minute after I say this. I’m BORED… there I said it. I feel better but I know a nodule of cancer is growing for this. I can’t help the way I feel. During these videos with a tear in each eye before I begin, I can remember cues of the most corniest jokes ever made during the whole video, what someone will say or do to make Tony say something that will remind me of where I am in the tape (sigh), the emotionless counterparts with robot like attentiveness (that I have yet to achieve), the hope that I could just jump in there and silence Tony Horton or make him sound like my favorite actor or look like my favorite actor for that matter. I don’t mind him; I’m just sick of the routine, sick of seeing the same routine and play it out in my mind before I even start… what gives???

To get on track here, this is my second cycle and during the beginning it wasn’t so bad. I mean I had one workout a day. That towards the third week I absolutely freaking dreaded. And it was only one damn workout… so hard that at times I found myself merging it with another day, only to say during that day… “Oh God… not again” Then there was the dreaded recovery week… OMG, covered in an earlier post. Then finally, a two day routine with Cardio X….ARRGGGHHH as I ran screaming away from the monitor with hopes to leave my P90x friends in the desert. Sadly to say, they’ve caught up and reminded me of my duty. Whispering in my ear “You can’t do this alone.” A laugh fills the room like Dracula before he swoops to the helpless maiden. Dammit… I know I’m on my tangent. I can’t help it folks. I’m dying here. And you know what, any other video that I’ve seen or have done; I would get bored way quicker. So here’s the question: are these tapes dead on for the 1st cycle and then you have to pretend you know what you’re doing on your own at the gym afterwards for about a month before you see no results, suck it up (in the words of Tony Horton… arrgghh) and put the CD back in. I guess so, but if so, I’m still half beating my determination to see if I will just adhere to the damn thing like so many others before me.

I’ve read that others have finished more than 4 or 5 cycles with little to no break in between… O_o…. What??? How?? The muscle confusion here is in my brain as I feel like I’m reliving the movie Ground Hogs Day every week before I start day one… dammit. Every time I do Cardio X, I wish Tony made at least two of these things so that that would relieve some of my boredom. Not to mention the same people in every video, the girl and guy that are about to be married for years now and the guy that is leapy frog boy… AHHAHAHAH… help… And I’ll spare my thoughts on Ab Ripper X… as it’s quick enough to get through.

All in all this is a great workout but boredom has set in for me. Even going to the gym wasn’t boring, but it would set in once there that I had no clue what to do. Now, I’ve come up with a clever scheme that may be the winner and P90x will be my friend once again. I’ve decided to take Tony Horton and friends with me to the gym as they happily perch inside of my Archos (MP3/Video player… in case you didn’t know), waiting… This way I can look silly at the gym as I try to master my Yoga, Kenpo and Plyo routines. I think I’m doing great but you know… that’s why I do them at home. However, I think this is the only way to keep the Grim Reaper from attacking me before I start a P90x workout. I have so many hopes to get to another cycle that will shed some light/weight on the keeper of my fat reserves.

I do want to make something clear; a lot of weight issues start with a bad diet and end with it too. I know that part of the problem here is diet and even though I have that wonderful P90x diet guide I have yet to hold its hand all the way to the park. I’m working on that, but like I said before… I like to work out, food is another story.

For those that have just stumbled here to read a review, there are a lot of ways to look at what I said. Breaking it down a bit, this is my 2nd cycle and not my first. I loved this the first time around and ran around the house with my arms up and crossed in the air screaming “Bring it, bring it, X me…” Now at my 2nd, I could care less if you saw my arms crossed while I did the routine at Wal-Mart. Take into account everyone is different and has different tolerance or endurance levels. I’ve reached mine… so don’t compare us. Jump out there and see what works for you. I’m changing this around so I can keep up with anyone that may want to shoot me with a bow after I can’t stomach my 2nd cycle. Until that last cycle where your finger turns off your TV… stick with it and keep pushing play. I’m still here with ya.

Stay hungry… (grrrr)